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June 2005
6/5/05
Woke up to fire and brimstone this morning, and the smell of chemical filled smoke flooding the neighborhood. You could see the fire and smoke from miles away. It took firefighters 12 hours to put out the fire, only to have it flare up again the next morning. What a sad loss for those businesses and artists. I wouldn't know what I would do if I lost my art studio. Listening to Blood Brothers |
6/6/05 A bad case of the Mondays...... Listening to Genitorturers |
6/7/05 "Whether it's the right to organize and be part of the American
labor movement ... whether it's the right to be able to be have a choice
when it comes to the most private and intimate decisions that a woman
has to make, whether it is to protect the environment — whatever
it is that we slowly but surely built up during the 20th century, this
current administration and their allies in Congress want to turn the
clock back on all of that," Sen. So fucking hot I can't think straight. Eagerly awaiting winter.... Listening to Skinny Puppy |
6/8/05 Why are the American Christian Sheep such hypocrits? They preach peace and love, and practice hate and fear. They force THEIR rules and beliefs on our bodies, all in the guise of freedom and love and protecting the children. Then they spread their tenticles into other parts of the planets, and denounce other religions, which have been around longer than "christianity". Listening to my White Zombie |
6/9/05 Melanie, my mentor, my muse, thank you so much. Talking with you is pure inspiration. My own persnal feminist art teacher. I just want you to know how much I appreciate meeting you. Especially after finding out we are from the same Ny Indian tribe. Amazing, I really start to wonder, maybe every event really does have a purpose. Listening to my brain's nerve endings fire |
6/10/05 Now that YOUR children are out of school for the summer, keep them on a fucking leash or I WILL bite! Listening to Scum Of The Earth |
6/11/05 Money troubles, not in the mood to type. Listening to nothing |
6/12/05 The "Mickeys" shoot went well last night I think. Now I just have to print and frame it.I cant stay away from the destruction site. They have started on the second grain silo, and I get so excited going there. Maybe its the adrenaline from trespassing on someone elses property, or the adrenaline from knowing I am getting good shots. I dont know, but afterwards I always need a cigarette, as if I just had sex. Listening to my Deftones |
6/16/05 How come we impeach a president for lying about a blow job, but we do nothing about our current president lying about going to war? What is the current death toll of American soldiers? 1,700 and counting? Yet no one does anything. And how come the Downing Street Memos werent front page news? Watching Aqua Teen Hunger Force |
6/17/05 Spent Friday night demolishing a friends basement because of a mold problem. Not an ideal Friday night, but fun none-the-less. Listening to Chemical Brothers |
6/18/05 Went out clubbing even though I was sick, probably made myself sicker... not feeling up to typing. Rorschach Test Raise your glasses one more time For every tarnished reputation Reading Grimm's Grimmest by Wilhelm Grimm |
6/21/05 Still deadly ill but somehow was bored enough tonight after being sick for a few days to do some self-portraiture. I had so much fun I blew a fuse. Dumbass me, I should really keep my old school strobes on a surge protector. I went with the sickly theme I've been visualizing since I started puking up everything I drank this weekend. Thanks to Jamie for the masks, glad you let me take extras :P Listening to Scum of the Earth |
6/22/05 Kickball is going well!!!! Even though it was hot as SHIT tonight, we still won 18-4. Wow. We've only lost one so far this season. Great job One Eyed Bishops! You'd think we took this shit seriously or something. I only signed up to drink beer and smoke on a baseball field! Much LOVE to my dad who is helping me pay off my school loans prematurely. After finishing junior college, I struggled for a few years about whether or not to go to art school. I decided I had to escape Virginia at any cost. The first year was tough, costing more than expected, and after that I worked my ass off, and still found time to party. He says he is proud that I am using my photography talent, so he is helping me pay off almost all of my loans. What a burden off my back!!! Thanks Dad! Now I just need to get my credit card debt under control and I can start investing in more studio equipment... Otherwise I'm buying things piece by piece. Going shopping tomorrow night! ;) Listening to some DVD about digital wedding photography.... Got my first paid wedding this weekend, I'm excited, yet nervous!!! |
6/23/05 GOP Committee Targets International
Red Cross Washington - Senate Republicans are calling on the Bush administration to reassess U.S. financial support for the International Committee of the Red Cross, charging that the group is using American funds to lobby against U.S. interests. This story is very upsetting, and is not being reported in most papers. The International Red Cross? Is the Bush administration yet again showing their true colors! Compassionate christian is thrown OUT THE WINDOW!!! I remember my friend Robin. Robin was a work friend when I was a young Shoneys waitress, fresh out of high school, thinking one day I could move far away from the hell that was Chesterfield, VA. Robin had the worst luck of anyone I have ever known. After her sister was in jail and she was taking care of her sisters 2 kids, and her own little boy, her husband was murdered. If that wasn't bad enough, her house caught on fire with her and the 3 kids in it. An innocent electric fire while they were sleeping. She told me how the red cross had shown up while they were in their pajamas in the street, and given them gift certificates to Walmart. She said it was enough to get the kids and her clothes and some supplies, otherwise she would have been homeless AND clotheless...... Imagine if the International Red Cross was bankrupted? What a sad world we live in. Listening to KORN |
6/24/05 Friday Dinner and a movie. A zombie movie- Land of the Dead. Evolving zombies? I don't know if I liked that.... SO tired. |
6/25/05 Saturday Wedding all day, talking about being drained of creativity.... Actually sometimes it is fun.... Had the energy to go to a neighborhood party. The dunk tank turned into a drunk tank. I havent laughed that hard in awhile... What a funny bunch of rednecks.... Listening to you try to talk to me while you got that cock in your mouth. Spit it out. |
6/26/05 Sunday I can't stay away from the demolition site!!!!! I never realized this project which began so abruptly would turn into more than a 3 month project. I have so many images that I have not posted yet because I have allot to edit. Unfortunately I am not the only artist who is not a very good self editor.... Listening to the fans whirl, it's fucking hot out! So hot my PC keeps shutting down on its own... |
6/27/05 Monday From the news: Some Ten Commandments Displays OK By HOPE YEN, Associated Press Writer WASHINGTON - The Supreme Court struggled in a pair of 5-4 rulings Monday to define how much blending of church and state is constitutionally permissible, allowing the Ten Commandments to be displayed outside the Texas state Capitol but not inside Kentucky courthouses. In its first rulings on the issue in a quarter-century, the high court said that displays of the Ten Commandments on government property are not inherently unconstitutional. But each exhibit demands scrutiny to determine whether it amounts to a governmental promotion of religion, the court said in a case involving Kentucky courthouse exhibits. So the Juedo-Christian's interpretaion of the Ten Commandments on government property is NOT a conflict with the seperation of church and state??? Obviously the judges are basing personal moral issues and can't see past their own crosses. This country disgusts me sometimes. I am joining Freedom From Religion !!! I am donating too! Some days I wish the south had succeeded in the Civil War in at least just succeding from the North. Will it happen in the future? Blue state, red state. Its an obvious divide geographically speaking. Going to get paid for the wedding. *fingers crossed* Listening to System of a Down. PS- Thinking of posting more pics in a photo of the day type of thing..... hmmmm....... I wonder. |
6/28/05 Tuesday Fuck, nothing in life is free. Finished buying my supplies for my portraits- screws and bolts, screen, spraypaint. When I got home I tried to play with my photolights but realized that when I blew a fuse in the SICK photoshoot the other night, I must have either messed up the lights, or the power supply is now bad. Fuck, what is it with me and power supplies? ... Replacement power supply can cost anywhere from $100-200 [ebay] all the way to $1000.... Ugh. I was getting my hopes up in playing with professional lights, even if they were hand me downs from a friend.... Well positively thinking, the modeling light works weirdly enough so I shot some photos tonight anyway. I never got to shoot these the other night when they first malfunctioned. I love texture, especially disgusting, rough texture. Figured, what the fuck, I like the abstractness so I posted them. Thinking I will add more later. These make GREAT backgrounds! Listening to the Transplants. |
6/29/05 Wednesday Won another game in kickball. Our team is making it look easy. After 5 innings the other team wanted to quit, it was only 19-3! Now I'm tired and sore... Listening to A Russian Exorcism |
6/30/05 Thursday Headaches started again. blah blah blah... Listening to Bile |
