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October 2005
The end of the month brings my favorite helliday!
| 10/1 Saturday Had a wedding to shoot today. Luckily it was near my house, so I didn’t have to go far. It was nothing spectacular, and I did not get any images that stood out. I wish I had a wedding every weekend, it would be a great way to help me pay the bills. The more weddings I shoot, the more I realize I want to get married in Vegas. The white dress church wedding does not appeal to me at all. Let me go get drunk, gamble and then tie the knot. Now that sounds like a way to start a life together with someone. |
| 10/2 Sunday Had one of those REAL dates where you dress up and go to the theatre.
We saw the amazing show STOMP. I was not sure what to expect but I thoroughly
enjoyed it. I liked the working class aspect of it. How people in those
crappy dead end jobs amused themselves making noise on anything they
can find. Kinda like a young child. I was sorry when it was over. What
a joy. |
| 10/3 Monday Spent some time with Melanie. I cannot express enough how closely I
value her friendship. She’s been such a positive influence on
me. |
| 10/4 Tuesday Coming down with a cold. Damn its been so long, and I was getting used to that healthy feeling. Fuck. I'm miserable. Planning to plant myself on the couch with a box of tissues and cough syrup. I'm really upset reading about the Federal meddling in Oregons Assisted
Death laws. I am so sick of having this idea of freedom shoved down
our throat, yet we are not truly free! If there is freedom from religion,
why are Christians shoving the rules down our throats? I get so mad
at this idea that someone else beliefs should be given to me as law. |
| 10/5 Wednesday Is anyone else concerned with the growing rate of poverty in America? Is anone listening? What happens when it comes for you? They say the leading cause of bancruptcy is medical bills. Do you have health insurance? Why don't we all have health coverage? While the pro-lifers are so concerned with unborn babies and wasting taxpayers money on this subject, where's the outrage that all of our children don't have basic health coverage? Oh yeh I forgot, once the baby is born it doesn't matter anymore, it's only the fetuses we care about. |
| 10/6 Thursday Fuck its getting cold again. Such mixed blessings! |
| 10/7 Friday Finally a weekend where I have no plans. What a great fucking feeling of freedom! I can do whatever the fuck I want!!! Ended up bumming around and then a bunch of friends showed up and stole
my money in poker. Bastards! But it was nice and relaxing. |
| 10/8 Saturday Pulled out my beloved Halloween decorations and like every year, I have so many, but still not enough! Must buy more on the November 1st sales! Was inspired to work on my studio space. Bought some lace and other
fabrics and working on a cool new background for my portraits. Also
made a black veil for a portrait idea I have in my head of a black bride…
I would have done more but my damn cold is keeping me moving slow. |
| 10/9 Sunday What a weird day!!! Sat around sick of a cold all day and decided to
go online and ran into a good friend of mine from years ago on AIM.
I haven’t seen her in years and she happens to pop online. Glad
to see she is doing good. Weird…. And to think I was just thinking
of her a few days ago! |
| 10/10 Monday Caught up with another old friend from high school in Virginia. We
all have our ups and downs, and I hope his ups continue to get better.
Maybe he has finally found that point in his life where he has a clear
head. We all reach that point at different times. Age does offer wisdom…
Goddamned I hate clichés and I used too many of them! |
| 10/11 Tuesday Will we impeach Bush when all his cronies and cabinet members are indicted on FELONY charges? Bush lied, people died. He has done treasonous acts, and how many people have to die in the name of corporatism? Does anyone really care? Seems like no one cares. Or maybe we just don't know what to do.... I think it's time to run for some state office!! SIgn me up! |
| 10/12 Wednesday A rainy night is just not appropriate for a hockey game. Where's the snow? Luckily my cousin in law who works for the city hooked us up with a ripe parking spot. You know those hoods they put on parking meters? Well he has one with they key, so he reserved us a spot right by the arena. Much props to Mike, that was pretty fucking impressive!! Well its been a year since I have seen a NHL game, but the wait was
worth it. The wild wooped on Vancouver 6 – 0. It was a great game,
and Roloson was awesome. Thanks for reviving my interest! |
| 10/13 Thursday I’ve been such a bum lately. But we finally finished the Lost Season 1, so I can get on with my life. That show is masterful in it's way to captivate! NOw I can move on. Read an interesting article today on the 13 different instances of the Bush Clan manipulating the news with terror threats or similiar fear tactics to avoid the real bad news coming out about his administration. Like a week or so ago with the terror threat on the NY subway. Well it turns out rich and important people knew about the threat almost a week in advance, the Bush administration just decided to release the news on a day that more indictments were going to be released about his cabinet members…. Funny how people don’t even realize how they are being manipulated. Its easier to go on being oblivious. But how does that saying go? First They Came for the Jews Pastor Martin Niemöller |
| 10/14 Friday I offered my friend Melanie emotional support for her part in the St Paul Art Crawl. First I must say we both have been around the states a bit, and this Art Crawl is pretty impressive. The turn out was big! Amazing it happens here in Saint Paul. Even in Boston it was not this successful! Her work is so powerful and emotional that she was nervous to put her heart out there for all to see. So I offered to be by her side to make sure she had support, even though I knew she didn’t need it. Of course she got an amazing reaction to her paintings, they are so powerful and her talent and craftsmanship really shows through, even if you are squeamish around her work. I did get the chance to wander around to see the other work in her building. I came back with a big smirk on my face because seeing all the mediocre work made me feel allot better about my own work! Maybe its true that age really shows through, some of the work shown seemed so sophmorish. I guess maybe Mass Art in Boston really was good for me, gave me that push in my work that I needed. The gravitas to be a little more daring then taking photographs of lillies. Unfortunately it seems like all the photographing I have been doing lately has been for the benefit of others and not my own creations. I guess I feel drained in a sense. I have ideas, just not the means to execute them. But that better change soon. It's my worst problem, I need to do commercial art to make money, but the commercialism drains me and its hard for my brain to work on MY own work when I'm always creating for someone elses vision. SO it was an emotional night, but we ended it at Red Savoys Inn. I
love bringing people to Savoys for the first time. You will never have
pizza like it! And sometimes I forget HOW different it is from East
Coast pizza, maybe I'm getting used to these weird Minnesota habits….
They cut their pizza in squares, like a checkerboard, not like a pie.
And the cheese is on top of everything, not the meat. It is strange,
but once you’ve tried it, you will be amazed, it is so fresh and
wow…. I might need to snack on another piece. |
| 10/15 Saturday Bummed around all day again with Melanie all day at the second day
of the art crawl… Then somehow ended up playing poker with friends…
I really need to cut that shit out. I'm sick of losing. I just don’t
have good luck. |
| 10/16 Sunday The warm weather, well the last of it, inspired me to go on a bike ride. I'm actually not sore considering how long of a ride it was. As much as I love fall, it is a sign of the impending doom of a long cold winter. Hope I can afford the heating bills. Anyway on my ride I stopped to visit the deer that lives in the cemetery.
She’s been there for months but I guess she likes it there. Everytime
I go by I have to look for her. I need to get pictures. |
| 10/17 Monday Work has been so stressful that I ended up with a stress headache…
I feel like SHIT! |
| 10/18 Tuesday Why do I bother watching the news? Youd think the end of the world is near the way the report all the disasters. But yet, at the end of it, they really don't give us information, just feed us fear. I'd really like to travel more, preferably out of this country. |
| 10/19 Wednesday, I think Oh where oh where has my inspiration gone? Been so busy writing music that I haven’t had time for photography……. Did see a funny scene in downtown St Paul today. 2 girls with old cameras
chasing a squirrel through the city streets. I must admit, it made me
smile! I don't think I was the only one laughing at them either. |
| 10/20 Thursday I am so sick of people driving like total idiots because they are on
the cell phones. What is really that important that you need a phone
glued to your ear for an extended period of time? Fuckin A, hang up
and drive. If I can have enough respect for other people that I don’t
drive while on the phone, please return the courtesy. But that’s
the problem these days, no one has respect for other people. And it
only seems to be getting worse. |
| 10/21 Friday What a shitty fucking day. I used Google Earth for the first time today and it is an amazing program. I wonder how long it will be a free version? In Saint Paul the satellite photo is a few years old, but fun nonetheless. I cant explain how much fun it is to fly around the earth with it!!!! Luckily after a few drinks I was feeling better. That and the newest members of the band showed up and we jammed for awhile. Unfortunately someone decided to get a poker game going, and I quit luckily only after losing 10 bucks. Then I just drank until I passed out on the couch. I think they are used to it by now. Did get a chance to finally watch Zombie 2. Wow, amazing photography, even if it was a zombie attacking a shark under water. Must have been before the days of PETA on the set. |
| 10/22 Saturday For some reason did not technically get out of bed until 2pm. Just a lazy day. Ran errands, watched some movies, cleaned a wee bit, went shopping only to return things, visited family, and passed out on the couch. Of corpse an hour into my wonderful nap some friends showed up. Nick brought Ministry’s ‘In case you didn’t feel like showing up’. I haven’t seen that movie in AT LEAST 10 years! And I still knew every word and person in the video. Ministry changed my life when I was a teenager. I attribute all my good taste in music to Al. Thanks Al. Breathe! corporate causes with self-served denial breathe! rusted syringes and half-thought disposal breathe! this is the world breathe! breathe, you fucker! children gasping the second-hand air breathe! this is the world breathe! breathe, you fucker! hope springs eternal but there's no conviction breathe! |
| 10/23 Sunday A day of chores, oh yay. We began the tedious project of putting plastic on our upper porch to deter the bedroom’s draft. Halfway threw some birds flew out of the attic and we instantly thought they were bats. After the commotion died down we decided to check the roof for more birds. I noticed a lump of fur and since it was moving thought it was dead, only after I was eye to ear to it that I noticed it was a bat. We mustered up the courage to pole it with a stick to see if it was alive, and it was like a zombie movie, it turned its head to see what was bothering it. I was more freaked out, in fear of rabies, but the damned thing still wouldn’t move. We hoped it would leave at nightfall. 8:30pm and the damned thing is still in the same spot. We do not know what to do, if we finish covering the porch in plastic, it wont be able to get out, but it seems like it has shacked up for hibernation, so is it a bad thing that it cant leave? I read online that many cave/building dwelling bats fly south for the winter, but seems our new friend likes the roof… Come to think of it, it’s the part of the roof over the bathroom, so it probably likes the heat and moisture coming from the bathroom. I would take a picture of it, but I honestly am afraid the infrared sensor on my cameras nice flash will wake it up. Damn. |
| 10/24 Crisis/3 inches of blood/Exodus show was pretty fucking awesome. As much as my friends hate the 4th street station or whatever the fuck it is called now, I like that venue. Yeah it has a big column in the middle of the pit, and yeh and the management sucks, and yeah you have to be near Decker, but it’s a great club in downtown Saint Paul. Maybe I am biased because I don’t have to drive to Minneapolis. I don’t know, maybe cuz you can pretty much park right in front of the club and not have to pay. Crisis were great live, I had never gotten to see them before. Karen Crisis is sooo damn tiny for such a BIG voice. Wow. And so cute too with dreads down to her feet, she almost had a dragon like presence on stage with those long dreaded tentacles! Exodus being so old school, still rocked out. THough they didn’t play some of my favorite songs… I could have lived without the King Diamond lyrical talent of 3 inches of blood… Though ‘Deadly Sinners’ Is a funny song, that high pitched singing gets to me. I guess IM just a sucker for cookie monster vocals in my death metal…. |
| 10/26 Wednesday The drive to Saint Cloud everyday is really tapping my energy. I have to get up at 5:45 AM to get to my work van by 6:50 AM so I can sit in semi horrific traffic and make it to Saint Cloud by 8:30 AM. At least I am getting used to the drive, but all the small farms are disappearing to the evil land developers. The new dot com bubble is real estate. Its really kinda sad. When will we say enough? When will we stop breeding? Aren’t there enough babies. Yet, two friends of mine told me yesterday they had achieved that next level of sex, impregnation… *sighs* Since everyone is doing should I being doing it? The sad thing of it all is that women have a higher risk of cervical or breast cancer if they do not bear children. So much for the feminist movement. I can live my life being a career women but I will die sooner than a breeder… Goddamn the irony of life. |
| 10/27 Thursday Saw the stupidest idiot on my way home. He was wearing shorts and a big down winter jacket walking down the middle of the stree… I never understood the people who wear shorts with winter jackets? Got to hang out with an old photography friend and talk shop, life, and politics and even some music. When coming home at midnight I noticed the streetlamps on the boulevard weren’t on, and when I turnd onto my street it was eerily pitch black. Funny how used you get to the streetlights. It took my a minute to orient myself and make it onto the porch and even find the right door key. Its funny when you live in the city you forget how dark the night really is. I guess I am used to the yellow orange glow of the streetlamps. |
| 10/28 Friday Was planning on resting but as I sat down after getting out of my work uniform, some friends showed up. I could not resist the talk of happy hour at The Triple Rock. The drive to Minneapolis was worth it for this kick ass bar. I wish I could start a cool bar in Saint Paul if I had the funding. But a friend told me Saint Paul only hands out a certain amount of liquor licenses. Well shit, no wonder the city is so dead at night. It needs MORE BARS! |
| 10/29 Saturday Funny how winterizing the house is so important in Minnesota. Even the subtle things like turning off the outside water, and bringing in the hoses, grill, chairs, and anything perishable. I’ve never experienced such things until I moved this far north. Yet, now I am getting used to it. If only I could just wrap the whole house in industrial strength 10 mil. Plastic. How old and boring am I becoming? Spent Saturday night carving pumpkins with my sister in law. I did get out for a bit after that to see Elephant. It is a Gus Van Saint mocumentary about a school shooting similar to columbine. The star of the movie was really the photography and the way he told the story. He literally followed the kids around, the camera to their backs, almost so you could walk in their shoes… Though in the end the movie fizzles as you are left wondering where the story is. I guess it was just about how cold the kids were about killing the other kids. Especially while reviewing their plan the one kid says “Just remember to have fun!” |
| 10/30 Sunday As the cold weather descends upon us, I was amazed to see someone wearing
shorts with a heavy down winter jacket. WTF? He must not be from Minnesota…
OH yeh, neither am I. |
| 10/31 Halloween It’s the most wonderful time of the year. Another year scaring the neighborhood kids. OH how I love to hear them scream. Its so enjoyable. In a fit of drunken creativity took new pics updated here. |
